Tears are a release, not a terror =)

That's a excerpt from a conversation I had to a very depressed friend.
Sure, not all tears are a release, crying from pain is certainly not, but when it comes to emotional situations, a tear is the starting point.

Anyway =P

An Upgrade!
Seems like Blogger has had a GUI update, don't know whether or not I like it yet, but at the moment it's fine. Like the option to edit HTML manually though, very good idea (not that I'm going to use it lol)

Dream on =P
Yep, that's right, they're still going. Latest one was extremely weird, had something to do with France, some very stylistic architecture, old Gothic Cathedral style? It also happened to involve my school, friends from school, a clown, and having a talk to a clown about losing people "I know it's hard, I lost a friend once myself" "But my cow left me!" (the cow was like a spray painted coloured cow... enough said eh?)
Funny dream, very strange lol

Another one involved me having Spiderman powers (but I later found out that the Spidey powers only occurred in my dream's dreams, though I think I did attempt to bring my dream's dream to my dream's reality... Yeah... lol) and strange giant steam engine tanks, and I had to destroy them. So, armed with a rocket launcher, I took a few out, until I tested the alternate attack (right click =P) and that charged up a little bar and took over an enemy vehicle... Yes, it was about as weird as it sounds lol

Homework... EH?
School starts again on Tuesday next week *eek*
I have an assignment to do, in four parts, and I'm going to absolutely hate all of it... Some of it may have been bareable if given in seperate chunks, but who wants to do a new cover for a book, a short story, a character study and a book review all for the same thing?!?!? It's not sane!

Of VSG
Well, I just started with the list, started to get bombarded by their mail list =P
Oh well, heavenly creatures really, I'm sure it's going to get uber-fun very soon...

Of horror stories and power cuts
Well, I was reading a thread at CGTalk entitled "Strangest experiences that happened to you", absolutely freaked me out. These people don't lie (or at least the majority of them) and most of them I would trust with my life (well, almost), and it was really scary stuff. Anyway, page 14 out of 19 and the POWER WENT OUT! It never goes out here! What are the chances! Anyway, I was scared as hell all that night and didn't fall asleep till hours later when the power was back on... lol

Goodnight, it's almost midnight (11:59 as of writing) and I must up and away... Farewell one and all (even though, as I have pointed out many times before, no-one reads this but me lol)

Dream on =)

Well well well =)
I've had a dream every day (or more specifically night =P) since the nightmares, and I'm happy to say they aren't nightmares (or at least don't scare the hell out of me!). I can remember them, if I really try, so that's an extremely good thing. Dreams are actually a lot of fun, a purely original show playing out in the deep abyss that is your brain.

Anyway! =P

The Girl =)
I've got to make sure I don't chicken out on this =) I've got to make sure I don't screw it up monumentally. I just want a fair chance at asking her out, without any trip-ups, or half broken sentences. If I make a good stand, and she says no, I'll be happy, because I made my stand. Then, it'll be even more confusing if she says yes =P We're kind of in different social groups, both kind of inbetweeners, and that means that at school we probably wouldn't have a great amount of contact.
Oh well, at this stage, it's a dream, but a dream which I hope has at least some foundations outside of the Wonderland playing itself inside my head.

My teeth are imprisoned in bars of metal! =P
The braces are going alright, I guess =) I got them in two days ago now, and they're about as bad as the spacers I had in before, but with the major difference it hurts to chew on anything at the moment =) Yes, anything, biscuits, sausages, and especially calamari! It takes a lot of getting used to though, especially when I tried to whistle for my dog, and then all of the sudden noticed it wasn't working too well. After a few stops and starts I found out it worked, but haphazardly lol
Only time will tell, I so hope I get used to them! =P

Last Exile
I still haven't gotten that last episode of Last Exile! Episode 26, the final one, that's it. Still haven't got it...
*sigh*
lol. It's actually not that bad, if I leave my connection on for approximately 26 hours and start downloading, it'll be done, but the problem is that it isn't a resuming one, so an hour here or there won't work.
It's an amazing series though, so I'll get the end of it eventually.

Star Trek
Star Trek Season 7 Marathon finished today, and I hadn't even noticed that Star Trek: The Next Generation had finished in 1994, silly silly me =) I quite like the series generally, I mean, nothing really challenges you mentally since Macguyver, it's good to see something which expands the general ideas of consciousness and of possible relaties, time, anti-time, etcetera =)
It was good while it lasted! =)

Homework
It really doesn't seem fair, but my last week is going to be partially ruined by homework. Fabulous me has left an assignment off until the last minute, a writing one, so I'm going to have to test how fast I can write this week, should go well, on a computer I can type faster than I can write. Anyway, that's my main bother =)

Forrest Gump
An excellent movie, makes you feel every major emotion during it's length... I don't have too much to say about it, apart from that =)

Creativity
It's that time again, to release the mental anguish =) Perfect time too, my music just clipped over onto Linkin Park, In the End, my favourite song, EVER!

Like a whirlwind inside of my head =)

An alleyway with ladders running up and down to the ceiling around it, and electronics, and wires, hanging out of every wall and sparking - A man is standing in the middle of it all, turning around, in a relaxed stance, to look at you. Two men, fighting on rooftops, which are tiled, running up and down with an agility never seen before - one falls off of the edge, but rebounds quickly using some kind of cord and the gutter of the building - they continue fighting and leaping from rooftop to rooftop. A man walking down a street, in the dark cold of midnight, and down a run down alley he encounters two guys, and rises slowly from his slunky walking pose to fight them off quickly. A electric train is running it's route between different flying cities, all connected by a small runway between them - All of the sudden the train is attacked with a kind of high-tech ballista, which fires a connective rope from far below straight into the vessel, letting others take over the train - the floating buildings it travels between look like pyraminds, but with quite a few extensions mainly below it. A vessel, meant for anti-grav transport, with a rudder at the back to direct airflow, it's coloured green and marked with golden runic symbols, on the bottom it has an engine which fits snuggly into the whole design - the whole thing looks like a fish with it's head and tail cut off, ie, tapering towards the end. Like in X-Men, with the girl who can go thru walls, someone fades into a building's wall and starts pushing out the bricks which hold it together - the guards come over to inspect what the hell's happening, and all of a sudden, out of the darkness just caused by the brick's hole, and hand comes thru - WOOOMPH - and knocks the guard stone cold =P ...

Oh well, not quite as good tonight, but I've been talking to my cousin Kate quite heavily =)

Here's to another day over, and yet another long night just begun!

My subconscious went into overdrive!

Apart from a bad dream or two I had (involving death of family/dog and the end of the world, end of the world in a way which no-one could stop, they were just waiting for death), my subconscious is actually beginning to act really well. The only negative effect apart from nightmares is that I can't recall certain words like I used to, don't know why.

But other than that, I just noticed my sb (subconscious from now on) has been working in overdrive everwhere. I'm able to imagine completely original and independent things, like the African-American young boy, on a train, looking at his watch, and even though they may not be amazingly sparking ideas they are completely original and not derived. I think I hit the first step in breaking into my brain. I also noticed that my sb is working on MY problems now, not just running off in random directions (which was why I was probably so good at word recollection). For example, I found out that my sb was thinking about my crush all through my English exam, and when it came time for creative writing I just out of the blue decided to write one on a romantic comedy.

I really don't mind it too much, it's amazing to sit there with your eyes half open and let your mind wander to the strangest places you've ever been. You just start slowly swinging your head, and you feel only semi-there, and start melting away in your head. You can imagine whole worlds on your own doorstep.

General
Anyway =) I have once again gone no-where today, and the VSG school hsan't gotten back to me yet, and I'm getting braces tomorrow... Hmm...

Style and Simplification
Beauty comes through simplification and style... Simplification to represent only what needs representation, for example, like most comics, they only represent what needs it, and what's the use of highly detailing the left side of a car when you're never going to see it. Can you get the same effect with a sphere as a highly subsurfed and carefully tended model?
Style, everyone needs style, as style is what will help you define a work. Some people's styles come through colour schemes, others through the use (or overuse) of certain techniques in post pro, or others just by doing something no-one else could. Some people try to develop for a world, so that people think of it and like it like a telivision series, waiting for the next 'episode'! A lot of things generally =) I must persevere to try and discover my style...
WooT WooT!

The Moon, Lunus pretiosum
I think that translate into 'the precious moon', but I'm not sure. Pretiosus/a is precious/dear, I know that, but there are some disrepcancies on lunus/luna. Either way, I don't have my Latin books here =)
Just a general note, the moonlight has been excedingly bright recently. So bright infact that my alarm woke me up a few nights ago, and I thought it was broken, because there were shadows on my wall from all the light. It was actually the moonlight. This light was just so piercingly strong that I could see everything around my house, a good 5-10 kilometre view, perfectly, apart from a few areas bathed in fog.

Maybe it's a sign decreed by the ancient Hindus showing that the moon is at a perfect reflective angle to the sun, signalling that the moon shall fall out of it's orbit and crash into the earth... =)

Well, we can all still hope right? =P

Klaus Badelt =)

Sounds like a bad science fiction name, but in all reality he is a fantastic musician. On par with Howard Shore, creator of the Lord of the Rings Soundtrack, and that's saying something.
Klaus Badelt is the creator of the music for Pirates of the Carribean! The music has an amazing sense of mood and power, and I really love them. It also fits in perfectly among my Howard Shore, Last Exile (Dolce Triade\Shuntaro Okino\Hitomi Kurioshi), and the rest =P

My site
My site required a LOT of work it seemed, mainly along the lines of W3C Validation (that's the set of rules and compliance for HTML on webpages). Now that is all done, all I need to do is add little thumbnails to the galleries =)
It also has a new domain, now it is located at www.smerity.tk until I can get www.smerity.com =)

Spiderman 2
Quite an excellent movie personally, all the effects looked excellent, Doc Oc's tentacles were composited in the scenes perfectly. It also had a nice balance of action/comedy/drama (even if in some scenes drama is over or underdone). I personally think it was much better than the first, and I love coming out of a movie and feeling I could run up a wall =P

3D
Considering going to AFTRS (The Australian Film Television and Radio School) for my post HSC studies, as it is available in Sydney, has a strong creative/traditional art foundings and education on that subject and will speed track me through learning Maya. It has also been influenced by the recent success of Sejong Park, a student who went there, and now has an animation about his experiences in war-torn Korea at Siggraph.

Invader Zim
Trying intently to download Invader Zim, a cartoon about a misfit alien trying to "TAKE OVER THE WORLD!"
While it may sound typical and common story plot, the way they play it out is amazingly unique, and is one of my favourite shows. Everything has an overexaggerated personality, and that's half of the reason I love it so much =P
(BTW, may I note here BitTorrent sucks! It's supposedly supposed to increase download speeds, well, I have a modem, and so far I've downloaded 47.2 Mb and UPLOADED 244.3 Mb! Where's the justice in that! I have almost another 1000 hours before the download is finished... Oh well...)

Art/Creativity
I think I'm getting better. There are sometimes, when listening to music, or lying in bed before I fall asleep, that my brain just wonders and sees a million different things, a corridor here, a winding staircase there, anything and everything, organic or inorganic, and all things inbetween. Architecture unfolds with every beat of the music, a dragon unfurls from it's shell. It's quite amazing, drugs except with no injection, at least not one I'm aware of =)

Of note, I created three new 3D works recently =P

The Techy Trashcan =) More info available at my site in the gallery pages, but the general info is the original image was created for a speed modelling contest, and from there it evolved into a scene. I still have a long way to go on the scene, and I just noticed how lowly detailed the trashcan is (I've seen it with 'new eyes')
May have an update in the future


The Blue Mushroom! =P
This I really really like. It started off merely modelling a quick mushroom (nice and simple things lol) and then I started to work on the texture and material heavily, and then I added a quick branch, and then some leaves.
I'd love to make a scene involving this in the future. Enchanted forest, with some sort of twist, maybe pollution killing them off, a "you don't know what you're missing" kind of thing =)

Anyway, I'm just going to let my imagination run wild until I'm forced to go to bed, just relax and listen to the waves and babble on typing. I saw this really weird scene with some sort of mannequin smoking, sitting lazily on a chair with it's feet on a desk. A scene with a car speeding along, the speedometer going wild, when all of the sudden something happens, and you go to a view under the car, and see ice start to travel along a pipe under there, freezing up the rest of the engine. Just a note, a really weird thing on Nickelodeon at the moment, they feature a pufferfish singing an old 1970s (or 60s, lower) into an old microphone while he's underwater in his fish bowl ("I'm waiting for the moon, a little sunlight, and just you..."). Nova 96.9 commercial ("Sounds Different") features an old guy peeling an orange, which screams every time he peels it. Imagination back, an old man, with an old pair of half moon spectacles, a top hat, and a gold chain to hold the spectacles. He is facing forward (forward forward, the same way as the photographer) but turning his head to look back, and has a mistrusting look in his eyes. I'm starting to lose it, so I'm just generally typing, typing helps to bring it back, and just looking forward with my eyes closed, somethings come quickly, others not at all. A control room featuring gears, and old mono style levels (pull the long level back to control something). Some sort of reddish crocidile, with bags under it's eyes. A robot, facing forward, with something like antlers, and his hands on the ground forward infront of him. Some kind of superhero, holding onto a cloud with one hand and grabbing someone else with the other, while he gets dragged around by the cloud. An Egyptian wall, with block collums to the left of a doorway, with stairs up to a giant door, and an Egyptian style dog at the top of the entrance, sticking out and protecting it. The top of a building, and the gargoyles on the side are replaced with ravenous dogs, their mane's hair stuck back in vicious spikes, and their mouths open to let the rain water drain out through them. It's all about trying to remain on this stream of images, adding tiny variables to keep cycling through the imagination in your head. The main variation I'm using is light levels (with my eyes closed), I turn on my picture screensaver, and it flicks to a difference size and contrasting image, changing light levels. I'm cycling music through my head too, and if I see a flicker of an idea, a balloon, a ballast, I try to focus on it and keep adding detail, or just staying with that in my head and seeing what I come up with. Just be free..... A generator in the middle of the air, with a spiral of small stars and particle streams all flying down towards it, powering it somehow. A building with two giant barrels on the top of it (cooling stacks, missile launchpads, who knows?). A giant robotic foot, nothing else connected, and all of the sudden part of it detaches and slowly goes down to the ground (like the back of a horse float) to reveal an army. A giant pole with chains coming off of it, getting struck by lightning, and down the bottom it is connected to an old book, standing on it's own stand, connect by a pole shaped like an upside down L. A snake charmer, with one of those goofy giant hats on his head, and a moustache, curled at the ends. A ship throwing anchor, with the anchor streaming past in the water, and the cannon on the boat in full roar with an aura of red surrounding it, blurred by all the motion. A guy with dreadlocks (brown) and a metal face, with screws holding it in place here and there, with an expression of a rockstar on his face. A young boy, African-American (ie, black, but I hate having to say it cuz I sound racist, and I'm not) with a green baseball cap on his head, looking at a wristwatch.

Anyway, the time is now 11:19 PM, I kind of just left this window open throughout the day so I wouldn't forget to post, but all that creative stuff I came up with in the last, probably half hour. Got stuck in some trance, still half in it now =)
Goodnight! =)